Just by looking at my evolution and reinvention journey, i realize it is available to all of us.
Why i am a Confidence Coach specifically to BECOMING women is because of my own journey of becoming and evolving and growing everyday. We are meant to continuously grow and become the best version(s) of who we are called to be, everyday.
My soul client is a visionary. She has dreams on the inside of her no matter where she comes from or what has happened in her life. She still yearns for more and her life is not defined by what happened or didn’t happen.
I started this blog in 2017 just to write about what i was feeling, i realize that i make sense of my emotions and of things when i write. I only wrote a couple of posts which i published here then stopped. Of course i kept writing but wasn’t present on this blog anymore.
Now we are in 2020.
Looking back to the woman i was 5 years ago or prior to that or even 5 months ago or 5 days ago or 5 minutes ago, i am not the same woman. I keep growing and evolving, hence it’s a journey of BECOMING. Hence my vibe attracts my tribe.
I remember writing my first blog, i was still in a foetal position and in so much pain and i wasn’t ready to GET UP or didn’t even know if i was going to or how to.
This has been a journey; of-course still many tears at times, at times still waking up from a dream and my heart aching. At times, triggers from a song and i start balling my eyes out. That’s what grief does, it’s really a process. I am grateful though for my journey of processing the pain and of healing and crying when i want to cry and now laughing when i want to and because i now can.
I guess my journey has made me to become very intentional and deep.
The things i have gone through including some of the moments too embarrassing to utter out loud and some i laugh out loud and some i cringe.
But one thing is for sure. My confidence and resiliency muscles were and are being stretched everyday and i keep growing and i now have muscle memory.
From 2015 or 2017 until now, a lot has happened; i went back to school, i started another organisation, i am now an award winning Author and a Global Speaker and have gained friends who have turned into family. And much more and i am truly grateful.
With all these beautiful and amazing wins, the journey has been with tears as well. Not only tears for the husband of my youth.
The becoming and reinvention of Mel has been and is a beautiful and amazing journey. However, like a caterpillar in a cocoon where others get to see the butterfly but at times they don’t realize how it has felt and how it feels like when one is still in that cocoon and the coming out. Oh the coming out of the cocoon is a story for another day. Where the resiliency and tenacity muscles and confidence muscles are being stretched and growing in the coming out process.
I am getting to know me better and getting to know me again and i am embracing myself fully and i am embracing myself more. I am getting to rediscover me and i am listening to my own thoughts and my voice. I am dreaming again.
I am accepting all of me, my beautiful quirkyness and not being apologetic for it. I embrace the fact that i am a deep person and i love it. I am also funny in my own way and it’s absolutely beautiful and hilarious at the same time, at least to me. Even when something “seems” funny to me only and it makes me to laugh out loud.
This journey is indeed a journey of leveling up. I get to be quiet and pause and ask myself; “what do i want with my life?” Unapologetically. Not what my loved ones want for me but what i want for me. “What turns me on?” “What lights me up?” “What makes my heart dance?”
I am dreaming again and it’s a big deal. I say all this to say, if you are out there and you have gone through trauma of any sort and society wants to label you or make you feel guilty for living. I am reminding you to LIVE out loud, i am reminding you not to shrink yourself. Shine in your brilliance. Live because you are still here. You matter. The world is waiting to hear your voice.
There are endless possibilities within you, within me and within us and endless possibilities everywhere. Don’t settle. Protect your time and protect your energy.
You want to experience all of what needs to be experienced by YOU. You want to gulp so much air, you want to leap, you want fly.
You want to live in such a way that it counts.
I am grateful that i am still here. I am grateful that i get to do the things i love. I am grateful that i get to dream again. I am grateful that i get to write again.
This journey, my journey of becoming has taught me, i am not in competition with anyone. I am in my own lane, where i get to bloom as me. Where i get to learn and be inspired by others.
When i feel overwhelmed, i still cry and i pray and i sleep. Then i wake up and face the world again.
It’s a beautiful day. Keep BECOMING.
PS. You are in there Queen, just like i was in there.